Cross my Heart.

Dear *$^#&*%@(*&^%,

The other day, you and I had a long conversation about life; mostly just catching up and whatnot. I mentioned to you that I started dating this girl and you politely asked what happened between my ex girlfriend and I. I filled you in on everything and then you made a comment - a comment I should tear your head off for.

'I'm happy for you. Dumping that other girl. She lived too far anyway. I always kinda thought ldr were for people who couldn't commit to anyone in their town. Sorta takin the easy way out.'

 1. Shut the fuck up.

2. Do you know what it feels like to fall in love with someone's words instead of their appearance? Do you know how much you have to like a person to be in a long distance relationship with them? Do you know what it's like to long to just simply hug someone? Do you know how much it kills you to not be able to be there for them physically when they're hurting? Do you know how much effort you have to put into them - canceling plans with your friends because you have a Skype date, a Netflix date, you have to talk on the phone for three hours, you have to write them a letter? Do you know how much shit you have to take from your friends because they just don't understand? Dear god, don't judge something you've never experienced.

3. Saying yes to (*%^&*(%^&* when she asked me out was one of the best decisions I've ever made. She understood so much of me that I couldn't even explain to my best friend. She knew the little things about me, she could tell whether I was in a good or bad mood just by my text messages, she noticed things I did that I wasn't even aware of, she remembered stories I'd tell her in the middle of the night that I'd forget the next day, I'd tell her I had an appointment in three weeks and then when that day came around, she'd ask me how it went - she was just always there. She knew me inside and out; better than 90% of the people who actually know me in real life. It was effortless with her. We got along so well. We never fought. We'd know how to make each other laugh. I never got annoyed with talking to her. I was in love with her. I still am. I'm in a relationship with someone else and I can't go a day without thinking about my ex girlfriend. And it's hard. I want to be with her. If she were here, we'd still be together. But the distance - I can't deal with that. They say if you love someone, you'll pull through because your connection is that strong but whoever made that statement obviously wasn't in a long distance relationship. Because it's anything but easy.